Today, February 16, 2010.
There were so many things happened lately. I've moved from my old job, due to some financial problems at the company, therefore I moved to Kuta now :)
Got engaged 2 months ago, December 2009 to be exact. Finally, one of my dreams is coming to be true, and I feel really thankful to God for His guidance, help me through all my worst moments, helped me to be able to through another tragedy, for losing 2 of my best old friends. Losing Glen and Indra was very shocking until now, because I never thought that they would leave me that soon, but hey, who am I to questioning God's plans, right?
My engagement was small and simple, but I felt happy and grateful, because I can feel the love surround the moment, the closeness I feel with my family, and my fiancee's family, who I consider them as my own family for now on.
It was unplanned, just because one simple question from my mother, which lead to 1 month planning for the engagement. Funnily, I went with my boyfriend's family to go to Java where we engaged.
After all the talking, lots of "Hari Baik" chaos, it was decided that we are going to be marry this year. I freaked out, not freaked out because of the idea of getting married like my friends always tease me so, but because there is NO plreparation at all.
We plan to hold the marriage on Malang, my beloved hometown. Eventhough it seems like we just got few months away from the wedding date, but still no preparation until noow, hahaha.
I've told some of my best and closest friends about this date, but I'm too afraid that I'm gonna jinx it if I talk about it too much too soon.
However, I feel so grateful that I can find someone who really understands me, all my negativity, all my laziness, my crankiness, and still insist on marrying me :p Although I believe that not many people will think the same as I do, but I believe that he is the best person for me.
I hope that everything goes well, though I have one big hole that makes me feel mellow sometimes. I really miss my friends who passed away. Now and then, I accidentally imagine how it would be like if they are still here. I imagine they all will gather at my place, like when my brother was getting married. It felt like there were nothing bad could happen, and I remembered how I thought that I would never ever be able to laugh that hard anymore.
I imagined that in my marriage, we're gonna spend my last night of being single by talking about stuff until the break of dawn,and especially, I Imagined how happy Dany is gonna be, knowing that two of his best friends are gonna be married. I bet he would sleepover at my house, and he would be my fiancee's groomsman.
I do miss Dany very much, and that is the only thing that keeps running in my head, imagining how he would be in our marriage.
But all the mellow-ness aside, I really think that many things in my life happen as designed. I just follow what my Lord want to do with me, I give all my trust to Him, and until now, I feel that my life is beautiful. It doesn't mean that I've never feel sad or disappointed some times, but still, in a nutshell, I think that for now, my life is great.
Not perfect,because in a perfect world, I would have a 170 cm height, billions of rupiah at my account, and living at my own house and riding a fancy car everywhere I go. I still ride on my 'bebek taun '95' motorbike, gotta through 18 km to go to and from my workplace to my house, and now I only have Rp. 3000 on my wallet.
But still, we have to be thankful for everything we own, instead of always envy other people who we consider luckier than us. I feel fulfilled, and I feel lucky for now, and I really hope that everything will turn out great for everyone.
cheers u guys :) c ya in my other blog :D
There were so many things happened lately. I've moved from my old job, due to some financial problems at the company, therefore I moved to Kuta now :)
Got engaged 2 months ago, December 2009 to be exact. Finally, one of my dreams is coming to be true, and I feel really thankful to God for His guidance, help me through all my worst moments, helped me to be able to through another tragedy, for losing 2 of my best old friends. Losing Glen and Indra was very shocking until now, because I never thought that they would leave me that soon, but hey, who am I to questioning God's plans, right?
My engagement was small and simple, but I felt happy and grateful, because I can feel the love surround the moment, the closeness I feel with my family, and my fiancee's family, who I consider them as my own family for now on.
It was unplanned, just because one simple question from my mother, which lead to 1 month planning for the engagement. Funnily, I went with my boyfriend's family to go to Java where we engaged.
After all the talking, lots of "Hari Baik" chaos, it was decided that we are going to be marry this year. I freaked out, not freaked out because of the idea of getting married like my friends always tease me so, but because there is NO plreparation at all.
We plan to hold the marriage on Malang, my beloved hometown. Eventhough it seems like we just got few months away from the wedding date, but still no preparation until noow, hahaha.
I've told some of my best and closest friends about this date, but I'm too afraid that I'm gonna jinx it if I talk about it too much too soon.
However, I feel so grateful that I can find someone who really understands me, all my negativity, all my laziness, my crankiness, and still insist on marrying me :p Although I believe that not many people will think the same as I do, but I believe that he is the best person for me.
I hope that everything goes well, though I have one big hole that makes me feel mellow sometimes. I really miss my friends who passed away. Now and then, I accidentally imagine how it would be like if they are still here. I imagine they all will gather at my place, like when my brother was getting married. It felt like there were nothing bad could happen, and I remembered how I thought that I would never ever be able to laugh that hard anymore.
I imagined that in my marriage, we're gonna spend my last night of being single by talking about stuff until the break of dawn,and especially, I Imagined how happy Dany is gonna be, knowing that two of his best friends are gonna be married. I bet he would sleepover at my house, and he would be my fiancee's groomsman.
I do miss Dany very much, and that is the only thing that keeps running in my head, imagining how he would be in our marriage.
But all the mellow-ness aside, I really think that many things in my life happen as designed. I just follow what my Lord want to do with me, I give all my trust to Him, and until now, I feel that my life is beautiful. It doesn't mean that I've never feel sad or disappointed some times, but still, in a nutshell, I think that for now, my life is great.
Not perfect,because in a perfect world, I would have a 170 cm height, billions of rupiah at my account, and living at my own house and riding a fancy car everywhere I go. I still ride on my 'bebek taun '95' motorbike, gotta through 18 km to go to and from my workplace to my house, and now I only have Rp. 3000 on my wallet.
But still, we have to be thankful for everything we own, instead of always envy other people who we consider luckier than us. I feel fulfilled, and I feel lucky for now, and I really hope that everything will turn out great for everyone.
cheers u guys :) c ya in my other blog :D
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